Really!

ok kids, enough now. What is it we the Gen X's are exactly "not getting"?
I hate that this blog has turned into one big bitch post about the trials and tribulations experienced with my teenage son. but honestly if I don't expel (diarize it all) I will explode! Yes I have more ongoing issue's with the gorgeous Matty. I am lost for words as to why this has happened. Where did it all go wrong? What exactly did I do to lead my little man into a future of drugs and alcohol. I honestly believe and feel in my heart of hearts that if we don't hit a solution soon that I will lose my son to this generation. I have already lost him in so many ways but the idea of losing him physically is so so scary.
He is lost in a world where the drugs make it all better! I really think the drugs have helped his mind to "create" non-existant issues in his life just so that he has a reason to take the drugs to make it all better! (did that make sense... actually does anyone even read this) what do I do now???

Been away awhile

gosh I have been away for quite awhile from my blog. Lets see if I can update life a little.
The Cancer... which was my last post was dealt with... twice! yep they cut my throat twice. sigh! So I am currently on a kind of "standby" mode with that... I go for 3 mthly checkups
Matthew... well he turns 18 soon in August. Again I think we are on stanby mode. He is living in a house with other guys and ringing me daily for food. We have always said there will always be a meal here for him ... BUT on our terms not his... aka I will NOT do midnight runs to deliver him a meal.
I will post more soon but it is quite late and I want to sleep.... I am changing my blog to a more positive one... so for those who read... keep watch!!