am getting way more familiar with 4am in the morning than I would like!

Hello again
Ok soooo things with my tummy settled down after a rather rough few days, and I am reasonably normal again... Tonight is a semi-rough night... as its 4am again and I am awake because my tummy is sore... not sore enough to need the ever dreaded morphine but enough to wake me and get me out of my bed. I think I am bleeding from my ileostomy again... am having a few issues with it and am having tests on the 5th of March in Sydney.
I have been flat out today, I just didn't stop (or should I say yesterday.. although I am guessing today will be just as busy if not worse) I have been at a Vocal Workshop with internationally acclaimed Opera singer David Wakeham over this weekend we had a session saturday and will be again on sunday. It is such an honour and he is an awesome teacher... I feel just soooo (bogun... no other word for it really) I love to sing, singing lifts me and my soul and helps me to retreat to a place where my world is fine and there is no pain.... NO time for pain when singing in front of people or in a choir. But alas, as a singer, I think I make a fantastic actress (LOL). Hopefully today I will do better in the group session!
Everyone partaking in the course had to sing solo (in front of everyone else ((((OMG))) was my immediate reaction, I love performing, I love acting, but HELL singing in front of people is a bigtime scary for me. In acting there are just words... there are no bum notes to worry about but singing solo well....... (for me.. a few bum notes). Well guess who got cornered in our group and dragged (yes I admit .. almost kicking and screaming at this point) up on to the stage to sing an unprepared piece of music I only bought 2 days ago. (Misty!) beautiful song but I need to practice. Confidence is a bit of a hurdle for me when it comes to singing...
I have another workshop day with him again today... it will be a long day today... I have this vocal workshop starting at 10am til 1pm then my choir rehearsals 1.30 - 4.30 then a solo lesson with Mr Wakeham.
Plus to ad to all of this Mick ... my darling one .. goes back to work at 8am in the morning for his next 2 week away stint ... he's a miner! I miss him so much when he's away... am not sure it is something I will ever get used to. He goes away to work for 2wks and (on THIS current roster) he is home for 2wks... this is the best with away and home time we have ever done but its still hard.
right now 4.30am ... time to try to sleep again... am turning into an owl!!!