hello again..... its now 3.30am and I have now had 2 doses of liquid morphine, and am still not having the best of nights... I am fine when I am up and moving... but lying down in bed is entirely a different matter... My tummy is so sore tonite and I am so darn tired I just want to cry right now. I have to be up again in ooo 3 hrs to organise breakfasts and lunches and uniforms for the day. I try to not let the kids see just "how" much pain my tummy can cause, a) because its quite personal to me and b) I just don't think it would be good for them to know.
I don't really like anyone knowing, I like the illusion that I am coping and all is fine. The less stress I place on those in my world around me.... then the less stress I create in my own world.
Hell I don't even know if anyone will even read this... Rightio... I guess if I can't sleep then there is no excuse to have a messy kitchen is there.... Maybe I should organise school lunches now rather than in three hours when I am totally wrecked and most likely grumpy from all the morphine I have taken tonight... (god i hate the stuff... takes pain away yes... but ughgh it leaves me feeling ... well just plain ugh for the next day at least)
a chapter closing
16 years ago
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Dear Carmel, thank you for writing to me, I really appreciate it. I am so very blessed to have all this support for what I am going through, it really does help. I see your blog is quite new, it looks lovely, I like your writing style. I'm sorry you are in pain, so now I know someone else that is familiar with morphine!!! Anyway keep in touch, I would like to get to know you a bit better. Take care and keep going with the blog. I will share a link to your blog through mine. Jen xx
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